Tuesday, March 31, 2009


Bloodwork and an ultrasound this morning. Estradiol levels are good and high, so I'm down to the minimum dose of Gonal-F tonight, just 37.5IU. They counted 7 measurable follicles, which I'm told is good. There's a slim chance, depending on what they find in tomorrow's b/w and u/s, that this could potentially maybe be converted into an IVF cycle. I don't know exactly what they need to see for this to become an IVF cycle, and it's only a very distant possibility, but the prospect has me a little excited and a bit anxious.

I have developed a near-steady ache in my abdomen, about 4-inches left of my navel. The sensation swells to more than just discomfort when I stop abruptly (i.e. hitting the brakes aggressively in the car- not me, but the woman I rode with to lunch today). I am very bloated, and my pants are a bit too tight in the waist. Tomorrow, I'll have to wear something with a drawstring.

This may sound overly simplistic, and I am one of those people always looking for "signs," but denying their relevance at the same time. Today is my birthday. I pay more attention to birth year than calendar year when it comes to judging whether a year has been good or bad. 2008 was not a good year, but for me it really didn't end until yesterday. We lost my mother-in-law and my husband's dog while I was 40. My husband was laid off for 6 months and I was afraid we were going to lose the house. We found the root of our fertility issues while I was 40, and endured 6 unsuccessful IUI cycles.

Today, I am 41. My new year, my 2009, began today. I've responded well to the OI meds. The cryobank is waiving their usual same-day shipping fee TODAY ONLY (shipping fees are not covered by insurance). This cycle's IUIs will most likely be on Thursday and Friday this week, and C will be able to go with me because, while he expects to be called back to work any day now, he hasn't been called yet. Then there are the non-IF good things that happened today... my most favorite musician in the universe released a new live solo album. I found out that the Dalai Lama is teaching and giving a talk in my home state in May (yes, I'm going).

Happy new year! Let the luck begin!!


Melissa said...

Happy Birthday! I am a total believer in signs and know that this is a start of a new and happier year for you.

IrishNYC said...

Happy Birthday and all the best of luck to you! I looked at my last birthday in the same way too, and you've read how my next year started, just 10 days after my birthday. I hope yours is just as happy as mine was.

And a possible IVF already! How daunting and exciting all at the same time.