Friday, March 6, 2009

in the middle

I know that I start imagining what's going on in the lives of other bloggers when they don't post for a longer-than-usual stretch. While I don't believe anyone is hanging on my every word, I do feel that there are people out there whom I've never met who do care what's going on. If I didn't believe that, I wouldn't blog publicly. So, knowing that someone out there might be wondering what's up, I thought I should post even though there's really nothing to say or report.

I took the clomid as directed and have had an extremely short fuse for the last week or so, but no other side-effects to report. I started taking a "pre-natal" vitamin each day, since my regular women's multivitamins ran out. I learned quickly that the DHA liquigel capsule should be taken at night so I sleep through the mildly fishy burpettes (not quite burps). I was also pleased to discover that these don't make me queasy like the regular vitamins do if taken without food. I'm annoyed to see that the USRDA of folic acid for pregnant women and those trying to conceive is 800 mg. My RE told me to stop taking an additional folic acid supplement with my daily vitamin that contained 400mg folic acid. I'm a rebel, though, so I continued to take the extra folic acid (hey- it's water-soluble, so any excess goes right out of my system. You can't overdose on folic acid) until the bottle was empty two weeks ago. Now, I don't feel like I was wasting my money on the extra dose. IN YOUR FACE, RE!

I should see the digital smiley face tonight, so I'm planning a couple of trips to the RE's office over the weekend and I warned my soccer team that I might not be playing. C will be going with me for the IUIs this cycle, both because he hasn't gone back to work yet and because they're on the weekend. Luckily, it's not supposed to snow so no plowing and no white-knuckle driving to an IUI (have any studies examined the affect of tense driving situations on insemination success?). The donor sperm should arrive at my office this afternoon.

Ah, the donor... we picked a new one, and I'm a little nervous about a decision we made in choosing this one. We made a list of our top 4 picks, and then narrowed it further to our top 2 based on availability and some of the items documented in their short (free) profiles. We bought the long profiles for our first choice and immediately discovered an extensive family history of heart problems. Both sets of grandparents, one parent, multiple aunts/uncles. So I bought the long profile for our second choice- immaculate health history! We're talking nothing but a little adolescent acne. No allergies, no illnesses, no nothing. You'd think that would make it easy to choose the one with the great health. The kicker is that the heart-problem-donor is open while perfect-health-man is anonymous. I know we'll probably have some identity issues to deal with either way, but I don't want my children to think I made the anonymous selection lightly or without consideration of what my children may one day want to learn about their genetic heritage. Hopefully, this is the first of a lifetime of decisions we'll be making in the best interest of the child we'll conceive this cycle.


Nic said...

Keeping my fingers crossed for you this cycle, I am 2 days ahead of you this time. Choosing a donor must be so hard but I think it is the right decision

Melissa said...

Finger crossed for you. Hoping you see the :)

IrishNYC said...

I've got everything crossed for you!